Can someone help me find the video again.

So basically, I send the link to these videos to my other Discord account to keep track of. Because of this, I was able to nab the thumbnail of the video. But basically the video is now "disabled". It didn't say removed but just disabled. And I was wondering if there was any way I could get it back? Like if it was uploaded through another website because based off of the fact it's HD and how there is camera work. It definitely looks like in a professional environment instead of some amateur stuff. So I really hope and strongly feel like it would be on some other website. I don't think this video is really that replaceable and if it's like something for patron I'd be willing to pay for it.